What am I doing here?

Hello again. Yes, it's study week again. Yes, my first paper is on Monday. Yes, it's only the MOTHER OF ALL FINALS!!!! *runs and hides*

Maybe it's my brain demanding an outlet for whatever's left of the creative juices/goo to flow. Dentistry can be so.....dry at times. Sure you get to do stuff and treat patients and all, but you have to get some knowledge beforehand. Plus, it's the last week of Ramadhan now......aaand they set my first paper 2 days before Raya. Honestly, I don't really care now. Or maybe I never cared in the first place. Ramadhan is always, a bundle of mixed feelings to me. Even on the news, Muslims around the world are prosecuted just by being who they are and practising their beliefs. Here on the other hand, I feel like things which are just petty are being blown up out of proportions whether it is to aid an ulterior motive or personal gains. Seriously, you want to fight for your rights in eating publicly? What happened to embracing the holy month? Even when I have my scheduled shark week I don't lavishly eat whether in public or in private. But who am I to say anything, I'm no uztazah.

Ok back to me. Hrrmmmm.....honestly I don't know why I even blog now. Funnily enough, I think I did mention the same thing in my previous posts. But I just don't have the heart to just shut it down....yet. I guess I still need an outlet. Surprising enough, I don't post any status updates on Facebook. Alright maybe it's no surprise at all but now all I see on Facebook are all these clickbait type post. I think a more recent one was about an official government letter stating the dress code of the function of sorts. Apparently, donning a saree was  not allowed. Then, all hell broke loose  when the citizens of Facebook viral-ed it to the masses. It gets better though. When news of this reached a reporter, she decided to make a satirical article about it. Malaysian being suckers for clickbait (again) title went crazy! Seriously, the lady was being sarcastic.A joke if it's too difficult for you to understand. This is why we can't have nice things *sigh*

Anyway, What has been going on with my life for now...? I'm done with ADSA. Finally. It sounds like I am complaining alot about it (which I do) but I feel the members there are ok. It's dealing with a select group of individuals. Haha! I said it! For every event, there is always an opinion. I do appreciate it, but that's what it is. An opinion. I can always do what is right, not what you want. I'm not an errand girl. Even if you are so wise and opinionated with how things are run, It does not give you the right to insult me, swear at me and disrespect me. Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean that I'm scared of you. I'm amused by your odd and impractical approach on things. I know it's not good to bring up the things people have said in the past, but it would be foolish to forget them. Honestly, the one that takes the cake is the hotel issue. You guys wanted the more expensive hotel so badly, I can't even reason it out myself. You said what? Better atmosphere? Better food? Hahahahaha! Atmosphere doesn't matter darlings. It's the people who you're stuck with that matters. Food? C'mon people, it's hotel food, it tastes the SAME everywhere. Kinda bummed that my phone died early on in the event though. Not many pictures of my miserable mug haha! And yet, I don't here any of your supposedly disappointment of us choosing a cheapo hotel. See? It doesn't matter. *sigh* Priorities people...

Back to my exams, this would mark my last examination for BDS. All that slugging all those years is gonna end soon. Am I wiser now? Comparatively when I initially started......yes. It would be a lie if I said I know nothing, but I do not know enough. I don't feel ready yet to venture out into the dreaded land of adulthood. But then again, is there anyone out there ready to do so. Most people just plunged right into it because of responsibilities.....and money.

I always update social media on the verge of having my exams

Hello there internet? It's been awhile.....a very long while.
Wow! 2016 already......and let me use the cliched "2015 seems just like yesterday" because it really does feel like that. Well, this year will mean my final year in university since I'm already halfway with my 5th year of dental school. So yeah, halfway through and I still feel like I know nothing. Treating patients are exhausting, constantly having to study is draining, joining an organization which I don't care for is just distracting as well as foolish. The never ending struggle to complete the quota before the MOTHER OF ALL FINALS *runs and screams in terror* Plus I am still looking for my CMR case *cries*
All of this worries is eating away whatever that is left of my sanity. Growing inconspicuously like a cancer at the back of my mind.
The amount of pressure is just.....wah! Thinking about it literally makes my head hurts haha! But in the end, when you have so much that needs to be done, you end up doing absolutely nothing. Hahahahaha I'm laughing because my brain is such a scumbag Grrrrr!
But, you know who's the bigger scumbag this time? My bodeh~! Big thanks for the stomach perforating gastritis and vomiting plus diarrhea eh? Really helpful in these times. Weather is so hot and dry too so that's nice *sarcasm*
Tomorrow I'm having my CPR assessment. Hopefully I won't be a blundering idiot like most times and actually be able to blurt out something that is remotely correct. 

Here we go again

Hello there beloved readers~

Its been awhile....quite the gap between my last post. I hate giving excuses but this year has been tough on myself. I can almost feel as if I am on the verge of losing my sanity (or maybe it was lost a long time ago?). I've got no one to blame but me. To feel the walls closing in on me....my expectations will come crashing down on me soon.

Stayed away from people for most of this year. Only interacting when needed. Sometimes I think my roomie is creeped out by me...or not. Friends that I have here.....*sigh* I can't blame them. They have a lot on their plate, since studying medicine takes a lot out of your soul. Dentistry on the contrary isn't a walk in the park either. Geeez, for anyone that said that dentistry is such an easy course...*sigh* they fail to realise that people allow dentists (and doctors of course~) to do numerous tests and procesures no matter how invasive and humiliating it may be...and not feel like bludgeoning them with a mace.

Anyways.....

Finals is next week monday. Here I am typing this, while feeling the pre-exam jitters. Sometimes I wish for confidence that only the ignorant have....

Like wut? O_o

I did not know you could blog using your tablet. Forgive my noobness! Ahahha will write properly soon

Thoughts During a Blackout (9.15pm 30/12/12 )

Dark and drizzling lightly. The tension of tomorrow's exam. The new year just lurking around in the dark corner, ready to jump at you.....and then the power supply was cut. My university had made an announcement on the power outage a few days ago, a warning to all hostelers perhaps. I myself have mentally prepared myself for this daunting ordeal. I planned to sleep through it. Luckily for me, it was only short lived since they used generators instead (Thank God!)

However, the switch from generator to main power supply left us with a few hours in the dark (literally).

Housemates gone desperado 'cause tomorrow is exam

The fear of the dark. The excitement in the air. The blinding beams of headlights from passing cars. Some take refuge in the dark (like me). Couples took advantage of the situation. Hugging their other half ever so protectively. Embracing them under the false pretense that no one can see them, well I did. Even in near darkness, I don't approve PDA.

The steady hum of the generator, slowly dying off. Waiting for the electric company to do its share of the job. Desperate people seeking refuge in emergency lights on the landing of the stairwells. Candlelight last minute sessions. The sound of cars going out of campus, toward solace with electricity.

The fear of the dark. The comfort of the light. The gift of sight. Never thought about it but, monsters seek light too (just a random thought). Perhaps they are lost souls looking for hope in their darkness.

Navigating in darkness, even in a familiar surrounding seems like being stuck in a labyrinth. Illuminated by the feeble orange light of your flashlight or your phone. Feels like as if you are your own protagonist in a survival horror game. Complete with random screams in the dark, little creatures scurrying about on the walls and on your feet. Only thing missing are the fiends...but really, who needs that when you got your own wild imagination to help you out on that.

I find that walking in near darkness is less terrifying as compared to navigating with said flashlight and camera. The latter seems to give life to shadows and being able to 'see' a part things that go bump in the night doesn't help make it less daunting.

Thankfully the night sky seems bright. Light pollution, useful in these 'dark' times.

After what seems to be almost an hour since they shut down the power, the campus feels quiet. Silence. We took it for granted. The heady buzz of the fluorescent lighting, the swinging of the fan's blade cutting through the air. The power generated from its humming motor. People manage to get acclimatized in the darkness. They continue on whatever they were doing. Going through their notes. Updating the situation on twitter. The obvious things 20 year olds do in this kind of crisis.

As I lay here on my bed, waiting for the electricity. Lighted by a lone candle on my roommate's table. Determined to study even in near darkness. Wondering what to do with my life. Might as well share it to the world right? In fact, sharing IS caring as they would say. Let me share my thought on this then: 

I think I like this kind of darkness.

The Nightmare is Past but the Dream is Not Over Yet.

Its been a while. 7 months is nothing short. I don't even care if anyone is still reading this blog. I don't even know why I bother writing in it anyways. It's not like I desperately crave for attention as with a lot of people out there. They have twitter accounts for that. Creating their cyber personas...an escape from reality.

A lot of things have happened in these short months. Some good, confusing and some are just downright heartbreaking. Will not tell much here, I gotta make it somewhat difficult for my stalkers right. Haha.

But what I can tell is this: I have changed.

Worst still  it might not even be for the better. Alas! Life managed to taint my puny little soul with its dirty hands. Made me a lot more bitter than I thought I could be. But then, I'm only in my 20s. I still have a long road of delicious agony ahead of me.

Failures for one thing, really forms you a lot more than any of those nasty warm fuzzy feelings success ever do for you. A part of myself was swallowed by it. Lost in its dark embrace. Struggling to break free, only to face new obstacles which I have not prepared.

I guess I'm not wandering around in the dark anymore but a piece of myself was indeed lost along the way. It may even be gone forever...but it's ok. I am as incomplete as everyone else. Ordinary.

Whenever I feel like a failure, I just have to stop and think from where I started of 

Fooling myself with this illusion of happiness. That someday I will actually find it and for once in my life I can be just that. Happy. Blissful  Telling myself that if I worked hard enough, or do good to others that the same would happen to me one day. Of course that would be just plain naive, not to mention greedy. But that doesn't mean that I should stop. Just because someone hurt you in the past should you condemn another to your wrath.


 Instead, it's best that we try to avoid putting others down to make ourselves feel better about ourselves. Inferior or superiority complexed, push aside those feelings of pseudo-importance and try to make someone's day a little brighter.

Things look less bleak now. The presence of loved ones help but that's all they can ever do. Assisting. Only you could make a difference. Solve your own problems.

Doesn't help that some are opposed with what I have grown accustomed to and trust. I know it is of best interest but I can't help myself but feel a little aggittated. What do you expect me to do. Plant a seed and expect friends to grow from it? Wishing it could happen sometimes. Pathetic, I know.

The future looks uncertain as always. Just waiting for a catastrophe to happen. Even if things don't work out as planned, I can only hope that we part on good terms, as good friends still.

I guess everyone have those foolhardy dreams back then. Even I had them. Never thought why it was ...in a word 'discouraged' by my parents but at least now that I am older and a whole lot wiser, I think I know why.

Once upon a time, little 12 year old me had a dream of becoming a writer or an artist. I still remember all those time writing down the plots in my short stories, the little adventures I would come up with ...all in the safety of my head.

But then, I never finish most of my stories. I guess I'm not talented enough or maybe I was just lacking precious life experience. Kept seeing plot holes everywhere or weakness in my characters which I felt really unacceptable.

So the solution to the problems usually results them being thrown mercilessly into the bin or lost somewhere in the chaos of my room.

Heck, that's probably why I was so blur during my primary school years. Always day dreaming about what to write about, creating conversations with myself, environment....the works.

Unhealthy. But it's not like I'm hurting anyone. Sure I'm in a permanent dreamy state but it's not like I can't be reasoned with....

A young girl should be more interested in boys and drama...

 Caring more about pointless things and friends

Other girls talk about love, so why don't you?

Aiming to pass since year 1 XD

Finals is just around the corner and I'm still having doubts whether I have chosen the right path for me or this is just a 'play safe' approach to something that would be my future. I guess I just have to work hard for this module and see what life has install for me...

I just can't believe it.....it felt like the year just flew by me in a flash. I remember complaining to my mom on the phone about how I hated this place...about the annoying bugs that burns and bites as well as irritate me. Can't believe I've been here for almost 3 years.

 I think I've made peace with the bugs but the people.....*sigh*....there are unspoken drama floating about and is yet to be unfold.....

It's kind of funny how people had to resort to facebook to express how they feel about me. There was one occasion where an old friend told me her first impression of me.

 Why tell me now? What difference does it make if I know about it?

But if you think of it....if we have the tendency to make assessments on others....what would our own be?

Da fats need to go!!

HOOOOYEEEEAAAAH!!!! I'm finally done with CA3!!! 

Eh?what is this thing hanging there? uuuurgh! fats BEGONE!

How dare you sneak up on me during my exams!! 

Never mind, its exercise time *groan*

No wonder I sweat buckets

My favourite pie chart

So much dedication....it's scary.

Maybe I should do this.....opens fridge anyway.

I hope I won't be needing this ever...

PIZZA! Y U TASTE SO GOOD?!

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My favourite

50 random questions

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name?
  We share one? Ehehe geddit? :P

2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
   I have a lot of moles actually, especially now cause I play around in the sun more. SKIN CANCER!!! ahaha! but if I had to choose then it's probably the one on my forehead because right now, there's a similar shaped angry red pimple next to it. Looks like something I'd draw on LOL

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
I think my science teacher during form 1 was considered pretty, reminds me of the Korean actresses.

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
naaah, but I've cried in a movie theater once with my friends. Imagine the whole row, but with crying girls. So the drama XD

5. What body part do you wash first?
hair first, then face, then body. I don't want any of my dead skin cells on my newly washed skin!

6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms?
What if it's a squatting toilet? No part of you is touching any part of THAT. But if given a choice, I won't go in the public toilet.

7. What's the strangest talent you have?
Being amazingly untalented that what. Being random can also be that though...

8. Do you have an innie or an outtie?
Innie...

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
Sour Cream Onion. Your breath stinks and feeling bloated is an understatement, but it's totally worth it!

10. Have you ever been tied up?
Surprisingly yes....

11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
Never been grounded before. I'm a goody-goody :)

12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
It depends on the situation...

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?
NEVER!!!! unless you're talking about the fruit...

14. How many times have you been cussed out?
Not sure...I'd rather not think about it too much and make me sad.

15. Which shoe do you put on first?
Right.

16. Your deepest fantasies?
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE!

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
I'm either really fascinated or disgusted to even go to one, but maybe I'll go one day to see what the fuss is all about

18. Girls?
I am a girl and I still can't understand them sometimes..

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common?
Do crushes count? LOL! Last time during high school, me and my friend would list out some things about a person we like. Innocent fun for us :P As I recall, I think she listed having nice hands and veiny arms ahaha. I think mine was having sharp teeth/fangs and fluffy hair! Soo normal~

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
Errr no way. I know some people done it much earlier but exchanging of saliva is just bleargh!

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
Cow tipping is undoable, even if there is such a thing going on here. I can't even lift heavy stuff, so how d'you expect me to push a COW?! Snipe hunting is just plain annoying and time-wasting so its a no go for me.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
Myself, family (doa before sleeping....sounds so alim but it's kind of a habit that I got since young. They are your family you know), some good friends...

23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
Not that I know of. Do people now still write poems? I used to but it's all forgotten now...

24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash?
Both are equally disgusting. Imagine having your dead skin rub against you again and again *shivers* I can feel it clogging up my skin! But if I had to choose, I'd rather take not washing my bed sheets again than the bath towel. At least I can lay something on my bed sheet when I sleep on it.

25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable?
My cat.....probably hiding from me muahahahah!!!

26. What was your childhood nickname?
 Where do I begin?? tomato head, schmoffie, MG,sopi, USOP!!, yo-so, and the weirdest one...fifi fufu fafa :P

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Just now in my room. Exams finished a few hours a go nuff said ;)

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
Never thought about it but I think I've accidentally went inside the 'little boys room' due to bladder emergencies. No wonder it smelled super funky hahaha

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
Talk with my cat?

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
Oh to have that much dexterity at this age! Why waste on toenails ladden with God-knows what

31. How do you eat your cookie?
Me like to dip the cookies in cold/hot drinks and eat it! Repeat until the feeling of guilt and fatness sets in..

32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
I have too many issues to work out at the gym. I feel like they stare a lot. Can't really blame them, no view and monotonous work out does that

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.
Er....too many to list down :P

34. Name one thing you like to see other people do.
Do a random act of kindness? It's so rare to see one nowadays, and I'm not talking 'bout helping out in welfare homes or other charities. Something simple like lending an ear or even a smile can make a difference to someone...

35. Favourite part of your body.
My eyes I guess. A lot of people say that I have nice eyes. Wished they would give me clearer vision though....but I'm not complaining.

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
I can't take alcohol. Even the alcohol in mouthwashes are to darn painful! How can people gargle it for 15 seconds? Amazing!

37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
Why is this even a question????

38. How often do you clean out your ears?
When it starts to itch and tingle?

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Imma folder yo

40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
Whenever there's one? Its really annoying to leave it

41. Do you have any strange phobias?
Nope, I'm pretty normal in this part

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Beads, popcorn,pens, pencils...ahahha anything that fits!

43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar?
Looking as awkward and noob as possible.....like always

44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?
I'm too lazy to do any dares. Truths are much more interesting, you'll never know what the answer may be ;)

45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name?
I don't even have an ex to begin with....so how?

46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date?
I think....maybe....possibly LOL

47. Have you ever played naked Twister?
Never even played normal twister. The only twister I know is the kfc twister sandwich thing.

48. Have you ever been drunk at work?
Again, no. Heck, I don't even have a job right now. Except if being a student is a job.

49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive?
Note: must find boyfriend...

50. Do you want to bring sexy back?
Sexy never left, as long as I'm here ahahahah!

It was never my favourite feeling but it makes you think about some things. I'm not sad right now, just slightly dissatisfied coz I can't help myself.
Thinking about the ideals of life, like:

1) I should work harder
2) Be smarter
3) Have better friends
4) Actually tell someone how you really feel about them
5) exercise more XD
6) socialize with actual humans...the ones that matter anyway
7) take charge for once
8) not let people take advantage of you
9) be honest with yourself

Being disatisfied is inevatable, but I I'll live...
It's the kind of feeling that makes you strive for the better, think about what you've done and assess it. Most people forget to do this, thus no improvement comes with these characters.

Lately I've been listening to a lot of old ballads (coz music nowadays seemed to lack emotion anyways). I've thought about it, but never more. But the recurring emotion through many of the greatest (imo) songs have some sadness woven into it. It's like the sadness brings us together more than a happy pop song could.

 Even in friends, everybody have that special friend(s) that you could open up without fear of apprehension. The one that would hear you out in the middle of the night eventhough they have work or class in the morning.
Someone that would wipe your tears give you a hug and shake (or slap) you to your senses when the time comes.

Guess I have to start looking for one now....or not.

 Sometimes I wonder whether or not I have real sincere friends. I know I should just forget about these kind of people, stop caring about them and stop giving a damn when they need you out of the blue. Maybe it's my fault that I am being such a softie and an over eager yes-man, but I don't know until when I'd have to take it.

Everybody has their limits, I'm afraid I've reached the limit with you. Everything you do irritates me more than you can see, too bad you're too self-centered to see it *sigh*

It's like the mark of true comraderie or companionship whatever. Good times grants you many friends but the bad times help you weed the ones worth saving from the lesser ones.

Instead of wallowing and feeling sorry for yourself, accept the sad situation. God creates everything in balance. One does not know the value of something when it is lost, but they won't necessarily miss it if they don't know what they really had.

Such an emotional post for me. It's just that suddenly I felt so alone in this place. Most of my friends seemed so far away, probably occupied with their lives, bf/gf, new friends to give a damn bout me. It's more or less the same thing here. Too occupied with their love lives and studies.

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 But it's ok, I'd have to manage myself.

Everywhere I see people in groups, friends or the random couple romancing in the background. It must be nice having someone to share your stories with, do stupid silly things together....someone you can count on.

I've learnt the hard way in life, that you can never wholly depend on a person. No matter how close you are with that person, life has a funny way of turning things around.

 But then again, if it is foolish to trust another, then what about trusting oneself?

Granted I'm just a person full of flaws and far from perfect but I'd trust me more. Not because it's selfish but just cause if I did any blunder, the burden falls on my shoulders alone.

Experience vs Logic?

Which would you value more? Experience is always said to be gained only through experiencing a particular situation, hence the word 'experience'.

Logic is a state of mind produced through reason and acquired knowledge with or without attaining any experience before hand.

A conversation with a certain friend got me thinking about the importance (or not) of the mentioned values.

As a person lacking in basic common sense at times (hrm....this explains my hatred towards physics) I sometimes tend to follow what life experience have taught me.

You tend to make many mistakes throughout the journey but then, no one's perfect.? Even if we did stumble across any obstacles, its the fear of humiliation of admitting you've done something wrong that is most difficult to overcome.

 The best thing that you could do in this situation is to ignore them and just focus on what you could do for yourself to make it better.

Nothing teaches us more than failure...

With failure, you would truly appreciate those around you...their support unwavering,

Finding the confidence and resolve to better improve yourself whilst ignoring judging eyes


Sure logic makes us reason all the pros and cons of any situation by analysing and predicting the outcome theoretically. But that's where it stops. Its all in THEORY.

Logic tells us that we should avoid things that can hurt us.

Logic makes sure that we meet all the basic needs required to be alive

but if its up to logic to decide how life should go then...

Why bother making friends? Most people are just looking for other people to use in one way or another. Experience showed me this again and again. But then again....why do I keep making the same old mistakes? Where is the logic in here???

Is it my persistence to believe that there is still good people out there somewhere in the world. That just because you have some dignity and moral values you would expect other people having the same as yours. Sadly its not the case in 99.9%,

The LOGICAL way of thinking in this case may not win me any awards for best friendship ,but it remains true to what is called surviving..

Call it friends with benefits or call it a win-win situation, but using people for our benefit as well as theirs seems to be the only kind of friendship that exists now. The length of this so-called friendship lasts as long as the other is deemed useful to the other person. Once one is considered  a liability, unable to provide any services to them, you will then be cut off, drifting away like a ballon into the unknown. Whether you 'pop' along the way is none of their concern.


.....but then again, experience taught us that nothing is permanent in this life. No matter how good (or bad) things are at the moment, its not going to be forever. Teaching us the value of the present before it becomes a mere memory.

So logic may avoid us from getting into any trouble or misunderstandings but experience is what sets us apart from the rest. Having many 'awesome' stories is always a good thing. It can be used as a:

1) icebreaker

2) killer of awkward situations

3) pickup lines (LOL)

4) swapping stories with friends

5) sharing a moment with a stranger you've just met

6) makes you a less judgmental about things

7) gaining precious life experience



That aside, I don't think it is that wrong to make a few mistakes in your choices that you makes, sometimes the mistakes will guide you to the right path. Maybe when you get to where you want, you won't be the same person as you were in the beginning. You will probably lose some friends, loved ones and even a part of you in the process.

My childhood friends have even mentioned that i have somewhat change through the years.
I can't blame them. But so do they.
Its nothing wrong, its just growing up.

Stress Relieving with meeeeee~

Thunder Cat wants you to STUDY!!!

• Take lots of self photos......LOTS of it
• Comment on those photos and sulk how bad you look in pictures taken by your webcam
• Record a video of yourself babbling
• Upload the video on youtube
• Start having intellectual conversations with yourself
• Have an argument with yourself, disapproving the stand you took in the previous conversation
• Lip-synch to a song....in front of your roommate
• Find (or steal) a copy of National Geographic or underwear catalogue and draw on some clothes on the   people featured inside

• TROLLING ON THE INTERNET!!!
• Have a karaoke session in the room singing your favourite corny + ‘mengundang’ songs
• Swim on the floor (me: wheeeeeeeeeee~)
• Speak in a foreign accent....and pretend that you are a citizen of whatever country that you want
• Call up one of your friends with your newly acquired accent and try to have a sane conversation as possible
• When you wake up in the morning, from your window, announce to the entire neighbourhood “HELLO THERE SUNSHINE!! NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN”
• Colour-clash as bad as humanly possible and enjoy the weird stares and giggles
• Tickle fights!! (do at own risk.....high chance of getting smacked in the face)
• Strike up a conversation with a random stranger...you’ll be surprised to what others have to say
• Have a poker-face competition with a friend. Loser must call the winner MASTER!!!!
• Also, do an air-guitar competition
• Roll on the bed screaming (omg...sounds like you are being possessed)
• If you are gifted in art skills, try drawing some cute pictures on your otherwise boring ol’ notes to make them look more interesting
• Load up on chocolates, caffeine and sugary treats
• Annoy everyone you encounter with your sugar rush

Hellraiser penguin!!!!!

.....and that's all for now :D

just in case you all miss my face

Love yah ma :)

I owe it all to my dearest mommeh for having such an awesome daughter *perasan*


After a few days without internet in aimst, finally there's some line here. So I stumbled across this and I feel that this needs to be shared!!


Makes me miss the people back home even more now. Sure you can call aimst as being my 2nd home for the next few years to come but the inhabitants are still not family....at least from how I see it.


They say that friends will become families when you are away from your blood family.
Friends may also become family at a certain point and place in your life *cough*


So anyway, to my friends that are still reading this blog, wherever you are and no matter what your timeline is at the moment.....appreciate your family...while they are still here.


Enjoy ;)


1.    My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . 
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning." 

2. My mother taught me RELIGION.  
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet." 

3.  My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL. 
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!" 

4. My mother taught me LOGIC. 
"Because,  I  said so, that's why." 

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC .  
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me." 

6. My  mother taught me FORESIGHT. 
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident." 

7. My mother taught me IRONY.  
"Keep crying and I'll give you something to cry about." 

8..  My mother taught me about the  science of OSMOSIS . 
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper." 

9. My mother taught  me about CONTORTIONISM. 
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck" 

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA 
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone." 

11.  My mother taught me about  WEATHER. 
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it." 

12. My mother  taught me about HYPOCRISY. 
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!" 

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF  LIFE.. 
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out" 

14. My mother  taught me about BEHAVIOUR MODIFICATION . 
"Stop acting like your father!" 

15. My  mother taught me about ENVY. 
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do." 

16. My mother  taught me about ANTICIPATION. 
"Just wait until we get home." 

17. My mother taught  me about RECEIVING . 
"You are going to get it when you get home!" 

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE. 
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way." 

19. My mother taught me ESP. 
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?" 

20.  My mother taught me HUMOUR. 
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me." 

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT . 
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up." 

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.  
"You're just like your father." 

23. My mother taught me about my  ROOTS. 
"Shut that door behind you.  Do you think you were born in a barn?" 

24. My mother taught me WISDOM.  
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand." 

And my favorite:  

25  My mother taught me about JUSTICE  . 
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"

I want a Batman XD

I should be studying for my entrepreneurship finals but here I am....on the weird side of the internet again *dramatic music*

 

I wonder.....how long since you last flushed?

Of course he is ;)

So in other words, you will always be cute in manga no matter what.....AMAZING!

'Creep' will never be the same again XD

OMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM!!!!!

Fear of loneliness is the fear of your own self

I've been introspecting a lot these days. Its a kind of habit I get when I start studying (seriously). Utilization of more brain cells I guess :p

All that time thinking and wondering until the other day, someone just made me realize one thing: most would rather be stuck with people they hate/dislike than be by themselves.

I wonder...what’s wrong with spending a lil bit more time with yourself?

 I like me.....most of the time.

 I never get it why (especially girls) need to always move around in a group (or herds) to anywhere..

 whether it be going for dinner at school/uni cafe, sports, bathroom trips, shopping, scouting for guys???

 Don't ask me why, it’s what I’ve observed over the years. Things like this makes me look like such a social outcast.

 On the other hand, what's wrong with being slightly different than what the general public deems acceptable.

So what if I look different than the rest of my people,

so what if i dont really act like a 'normal' drama-lovin-boy-crazy gal,

so what if i don't conform to your standards.

Go and get someone else if I don’t meet all your criteria...bitch.

 You'd think that i'm all that hard up on you? Wrong again my dear friend.

It sickens me when nosy people like to intrude in a little something called 'territory' and have the nerve to say something that I should know better.

 It’s not to say that I’m that uptight, I do answer stuff in a civilised manner but please know your boundaries and if so, watch what you're stepping on.

I may look all nice and sweet but even I have limits. Cross that thin line and be prepared to face some dead serious nastiness from yours truly.

Really?! Can you be even more inconsiderate?

 Being blunt is one thing, being a jerk is a whole different level. *sigh* the things I do to make other people happy.

Eyes on Me

Been listening to a lot of FF songs lately. I know...its corny at times but I kinda like it now
Call it a new found appreciation to in game music if u like, radio is so overrated anyways
At the time when 'eyes on me' played, I don't really like it.
Blame my tween self, I just skipped through all the lovey-dovey scenes in FF8 anyways XD

But now...I'm like

''sweet melodies of love, where have thy been all this time''

aaah bluelaguna.net, you have fueled my love in my time of need *slaps self*

I don't know what has become of me? It's not like I'm in love (or am I?)

Looking through some of my friend's post, most touch on the topic of luuurve lol
As you probably would have notices by now, i (almost) never blog about my my non-existent love life

Why you may ask? Because its NON-EXISTENT that's why

not the cause of my depression but watching a walk to remember makes me depressed every time...don't ask XD


They think I'm odd but I feel completely normal :D

Overthinking....again XD

Its easy to just judge everything at face value. Taking time to investigate let alone know about something takes too much time in this day and age where a 24 hour day is simply not enough with all the things that is available to them.

I don’t know if you want to agree with me on this (but frankly, I don’t care if you do) but there’s always another side of things. For example...

When judging a person, is it fair to simply speculate on what can be seen? Is everything a ‘what you see is what you get?

Humans never fail to surprise me.

And yet, I  get bored of their antics over time.

I find it curious when a person simply classifies someone as being ‘unfit’ or unworthy as compared to themselves.

But then, how can it be? We may look different on the outside but everyone bleeds the same sticky mess on the inside.

To be so quick in stereotyping a person or a group because of just how they look....it’s just too shallow to my liking.

Personality wise...well that’s a whole different story. If you act like an annoying self-centered bitch then you shall be treated as one. No point in fake pleasantries, at least be honest to yourself for a change. But then, I never believe in such a thing as having a ‘perfect personality’

You can try to appear perfect in looks and how you carry yourself but ultimately, you can’t really change who you are on the inside.

No matter how hard you try to forget or hide that part of you, it never leaves you.  Its forever imprinted in you but it’s ok.

As bad as a person is, there is always some good in them

Call me an optimistic loser but it’s one of my many principles. No one is created equal. Of course there are many differences between us but that is what makes it more interesting. Sometimes when I happen to dislike someone, I always think of this. Or when life does not proceed as I want it to be, I always think that maybe some good may come out of this misfortune.

 We may not realize it now and yeah curse at our awful luck due to some turn of events but we must always try to find the silver lining in the stormy roads of life.

Kinda like meeting new people, making friends, spawning enemies. It just has to be done.

But it doesn’t mean that if someone leaves you, they never made an impression on you..

Maybe it was never meant to be but at that time, but maybe...just maybe, their presence their presence at that times made you a better person now.

I guess some people are like Mary Poppins. Coming without any warning. Leaving when things seemed bright and sunny.

It’s like they’re the people that you need but not all the time.

It may be just for a while but it makes all the difference.

So cherish the people that you meet, in all their shapes, sizes, smell(???) and other things

Have you ever realise what kind of life we would have led if there is no pain or suffering in it?

Imagine all the cool stories we would have missed....or not if you like a quiet but boring peaceful kind of life...