a little pain never hurt anyone

The easy way would be to just drift through life, carried by the turbulence of its cruel rapids.
Always accepting things that are happening as it is. Never trying to fight back.



I believe, what is life but not a fight to the day we are laid to rest.

Everyday,we will meet challenges, some more difficult to overcome than others but doable all the same.


Friends may forsake you, family may disown or abandon you and even your own body may cease to function at one point.
 That is why (in my honest opinion ^^) that the best person that you can depend on in any situation is yourself. Not your friends (or even best friends) or family....


I realised.....one day, everyone at one point will leave you. No one ever said that its gonna be easy but its always better to face it, chin up even if your heart feels heavy at times. In other words, get your head out of the clouds (at least for a while) and realize this fact earlier on.


Running away from problems won't solve it (well most of it) but sometimes its wiser to admit defeat than waste your time on something which you may not care or if it's just plain stupid.

That is why, i find it curious as to why some people are fully dependent on other people in order for them to thrive. Like some sort of parasite, sucking on the nutrients of the host, draining them of vital life energy. 


Ok, alright i know I sound kind of selfish and egoistic but being a burden to another is another thing totally. 
If its up to me, I won't really ask for help cause I feel like as if i 'owe' someone a favour or something. God knows the type of people these days....always looking to use another for their own ulterior motive...


But then....there are some people that have the so-called 'frenemies'.
For what reason, I don't know and will never know anyway. Its just against my principles.
If for whatever reason it may be that i dislike you, i would just stay away from you....less contact less unnecessary feelings involved 


Oh wait a minute, i know why.......they love DRAMA cause they have nothing else to do :P

sorry?

Lately i have been thinking....how hard is it to forgive a certain someone or anyone in particular. If done superficially, then it may be easy. But what value is left there?


There is no more the trust that was once there. Now what is left is only false security of the dregs of the so-called friendship.


Only god is capable of true forgiveness i guess. No matter what evil deed that you may have done, if you repent with all your heart and soul and pray for forgiveness then He may grant you forgiveness. 


But as mere mortals we should be the better person and forgive whatever evil or wrongdoings the other may have done. 
However, more often than not, that is not the case.


I have seen grudges being held on for decades and the fires still burn as wickedly if not even more. Blood being spilled and hearts broken because of their refusal to accept things that had happened


Ego is one thing but being stubborn for your own good is another different story nonetheless...


The question is......what do you value most? Ego? or "friendship"?

If that is what it takes to go on living.....so be it

Hello and goodbyes

Dear friends,

The time for us to part ways to fulfill our dreams have come. But we may have strayed away from each other unconsciously without us being mildly aware of it. 


Distance does not necessarily make the heart go fonder but more forgetful. Nevertheless, we can always try to reminds ourselves of the things we had shared.


I thank you all for the memories and time we spent together throughout our friendship. Throughout the good times and the bad times. 


I know that i may not be the most easiest person to understand but you all managed to. Until the next time we meet then...

Between the Answer and the Truth

When someone asks you a question, we are often stuck for answers. Depending on the situation, we would give and honest answer which does not necessarily mean the whole truth but may contain a molecule of it.... at the very least. For example:

• "nah, you look ok in that, dont worry"
• "the food was.....fine"
• "don't worry, I'm gonna be fine"
• "....chill"
• "....maybe..."
• "er....i got plans"
• "I think you're cute in your own way"
• "...that was interesting"
• "its so.....you"
• "you're not fat, just more huggable"

But some answers may mutate into becoming something so sinister that the only comeback that you can give is by giving the same one......backhanded compliments. The evil cousin of sarcasm and insults, causes one to be unable to retaliate in the best way (e.g: go all barbaric  and SMASH!!!*growl*) but forces us to retain the inner beast that is raging inside. Instead we're left with only sarcasm as our ammo....or worse..just smile and act all ignorant. No wonder we're all so stressed up nowadays, all that pent up tension of reading between the lines, always being forced to follow 'Da Rules' *sigh*

Ok ok, sometimes bending the truth is fine and all but sometimes....you gotta fake it. Especially when it's someones feelings that's involved. But this applies to only your dearest love ones. The rest well, I'd just try to be nice. Frenemies.....why would i even bother having one in the first place XD I'm sure most of the you have done this before

• said that you left/lost/burned/something-ate your homework
• said that you're busy but actually, you just don't want to hang around a particular someone
• said that you're out with friends....but that ain't the case
• left your wallet and ask for them to treat you when in fact....you're just being cheap
• got presents but hate whatever it is that you got secretly
• at the salon, tried to convince self that haircut was good...go back home cursing the hairstylist
• "I'll be ready in 10 minutes" LIES!!!!
• "I'm on the way"
• "naah, i never watch the kardashians" (secretly watch it when no one's looking)
• and the best of all......i love you too

what i feel like....right now

Yes, its pyramid head. Yes thats how i feel now after my haircut T_T. Less bad ass like him, more like...negishi from DMC (interesting anime btw) XD

But hey....hair grows.

Best years of our lives eh?

A re-post from a dear friend. Seeing that now most of our friends are or starting life as university students...this seems appropriate. 

As you begin your college experience, I thought I’d leave you with the things that, in retrospect, I think are important as you navigate the next four years. I hope that some of them are helpful.

Here goes…

1. Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.
2. Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.
3. In college more than ever before, songs will attach themselves to memories. Every month or two, make a mix cd, mp3 folder, whatever - just make sure you keep copies of these songs. Ten years out, they’ll be as effective as a journal in taking you back to your favorite moments.
4. Take naps in the middle of the afternoon with reckless abandon.
5. Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you’re nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.
6. If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don’t let people tell you that you “should be more organized” or that you “should plan better.” Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure - so I always procrastinated… and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.
7. At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn’t do so well on the final, but I haven’t thought about psych since 1993. I’ve thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son’s godfather) at least once a month ever since.
8. Become friends with your favorite professors. Recognize that they can learn from you too - in fact, that’s part of the reason they chose to be professors.
9. Carve out an hour every single day to be alone. (Sleeping doesn’t count.)
10. Go on dates. Don’t feel like every date has to turn into a relationship.
11. Don’t date someone your roommate has been in a relationship with.
12. When your friends’ parents visit, include them. You’ll get free food, etc., and you’ll help them to feel like they’re cool, hangin’ with the hip college kids.
13. In the first month of college, send a hand-written letter to someone who made college possible for you and describe your adventures thus far. It will mean a lot to him/her now, and it will mean a lot to you in ten years when he/she shows it to you.
14. Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, “what can I learn from this person?” More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.
15. All-nighters are entirely overrated.
16. For those of you who have come to college in a long-distance relationship with someone from high school: despite what many will tell you, it can work. The key is to not let your relationship interfere with your college experience. If you don’t want to date anyone else, that’s totally fine! What’s not fine, however, is missing out on a lot of defining experiences because you’re on the phone with your boyfriend/girlfriend for three hours every day.
17. Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as “in person.”) Often someone’s facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.
18. Take risks.
19. Don’t be afraid of (or excited by) the co-ed bathrooms. The thrill is over in about 2 seconds.
20. Wednesday is the middle of the week; therefore on wednesday night the week is more than half over. You should celebrate accordingly. (It makes thursday and friday a lot more fun.)
21. Welcome failure into your lives. It’s how we grow. What matters is not that you failed, but that you recovered.
22. Take some classes that have nothing to do with your major(s), purely for the fun of it.
23. It’s important to think about the future, but it’s more important to be present in the now. You won’t get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.
24. When you’re living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents’ money. If you’re going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a “valuable social experience.”
25. Don’t be afraid to fall in love. When it happens, don’t take it for granted. Celebrate it, but don’t let it define your college experience.
26. Much of the time you once had for pleasure reading is going to disappear. Keep a list of the books you would have read had you had the time, so that you can start reading them when you graduate.
27. Things that seem like the end of the world really do become funny with a little time and distance. Knowing this, forget the embarassment and skip to the good part.
28. Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.
29. No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You’re going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can’t imagine, across all fronts. You can’t learn if you’re closed off.
30. If you need to get a job, find something that you actually enjoy. Just because it’s work doesn’t mean it has to suck.
31. Don’t always lead. It’s good to follow sometimes.
32. Take a lot of pictures. One of my major regrets in life is that I didn’t take more pictures in college. My excuse was the cost of film and processing. Digital cameras are cheap and you have plenty of hard drive space, so you have no excuse.
33. Your health and safety are more important than anything.
34. Ask for help. Often.
35. Half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at any given moment. Way more than half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at some point in the next four years. Get used to it.
36. In ten years very few of you will look as good as you do right now, so secretly revel in how hot you are before it’s too late.
37. In the long run, where you go to college doesn’t matter as much as what you do with the opportunities you’re given there. The MIT name on your resume won’t mean much if that’s the only thing on your resume. As a student here, you will have access to a variety of unique opportunities that no one else will ever have - don’t waste them.
38. On the flip side, don’t try to do everything. Balance = well-being.
39. Make perspective a priority. If you’re too close to something to have good perspective, rely on your friends to help you.
40. Eat badly sometimes. It’s the last time in your life when you can do this without feeling guilty about it.
41. Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.
42. Wash your sheets more than once a year. Trust me on this one.
43. If you are in a relationship and none of your friends want to hang out with you and your significant other, pay attention. They usually know better than you do.
44. Don’t be afraid of the weird pizza topping combinations that your new friend from across the country loves. Some of the truly awful ones actually taste pretty good. Expand your horizons.
45. Explore the campus thoroughly. Don’t get caught.
46. Life is too short to stick with a course of study that you’re no longer excited about. Switch, even if it complicates things.
47. Tattoos are permanent. Be very certain.
48. Don’t make fun of prefrosh. That was you like 2 hours ago.
49. Enjoy every second of the next four years. It is impossible to describe how quickly they pass.

This is the only time in your lives when your only real responsibility is to learn. Try to remember how lucky you are every day.

Be yourself. Create. Inspire, and be inspired. Grow. Laugh. Learn. Love.
Welcome to some of the best years of your lives.